Whenever you don't give up

Whenever you don't give up,
you have a strenght to exceed them.
And victories on your difficult situations
make you stronger, mature and more experienced.
You think : "If I made it through this, I can do anything!"
You receive new zeal and tenor.

Life is beautiful again.

Dreaming my dreams

I haven't listened to that particular Cranberries song in ages. In a way I even forgot how good and hopefully it made me feel. Beyond the words to describe it. 

...Dreaming my dreams with you...with every morning that sets the night, with every sun that blows away the clouds...

The soft few chords take me away into my dreams...away from Earth's plane into dreams beyond dreams.

...I'll be there...I'll be dreaming my dreams with you... and there's no other place that I'd lay down my face...I'll be dreaming my dreams with you...

Dreaming of green meadows and a clearwater creeks. Waterfalls breaking the silence of glowing sun...giving the life to magic beyond your belief. Galloping on a white unicorn through forests and fields created with your own imagination...there's no limits, no boundaries.

Dreams can be so much more than reality, if you only can reach them.

Nothing...

What is there to do
When nothing makes you happy anymore
Everything you seemed to accomplish so far
Seems useless
Every dream you had
just turned into your worst nightmare
Every hope you had
just vanished or it was ruined by someone or something

What is there to do
Nothing...
No matter how hard I'll try to get everything back
or to move on
I will always end up
with NOTHING...

Perfect

Perfectionism, in psychology, is a belief that perfection can and should be attained. In it's pathological form, perfectionism is a belief that work our output that is anything less than perfect is unaccaptable.

Everyone has their own way of accheiving perfection...because I like to get work done as best as it can be, it doesn't mean I'm perfectionist.

If I was a perfectionist, I'd be so much better at everything.

Now I'm not even close to good at whatever I do...

If I was less dependant on my feelings,I'd probably so much better...I could even do stuff I'm totally, completely afraid of doing right now...

but in the end some feelings are good.They give us the information about ourselves.How we deal with the world outside ourselves. It's suppose to be a feedback about what's going on around us. But I still don't get why we always keep remembering the bad feelings...the anger,sadness,disapointments...why not all the happy moments we had with someone or something.The feelings we felt then...

Why do we always tie ourselves to the broken memories,to ones that force us into a small shell  and make us build a protective wall around it just in case someone wants to hurt us again...

so in the end I'm not a perfectionist!

I'm just protected my the wall of perfection...